Staying & Creating Positive

Going from partial lock-down to level 5 only became a reality when the novelty of Pyjama days and Face Time parties wore off. Where is our freedom?

Not allowed to exercise? Not allowed to enjoy a glass of wine when I feel I deserve one because I ran out two weeks ago and I am not allowed to buy any, anywhere? Most of all not allowed to take my child to the beach?

For me the real pain was the loneliness. Not being able to see my friends and family, face to face not face to screen. To talk about our fears and share our feelings. I didn’t know if I was the only one feeling guilty for feeling angry about not having freedom.

Why guilty? Well, locking down people in their homes meant different things for different people.

While we were baking luxury goods, other people hardly had food to eat.

But then I went from guilt to rebellion. Why should I feel guilty about a life that we worked really hard to live. Why should we not have a choice to be exposed to whatever danger is lurking out there? I understand, it is not the same thing as being exposed to the probability of getting hit by a bus, but still, being threatened with a criminal record for going to the beach, wide open beach, fresh air?

Hiding behind our masks. Controversial to say the least, which I am not prepared to discuss. But, I do know the effect it has on my child. Not being able to see people’s faces when we go out for groceries, or more recently to go for a walk on the beach (after the levels were lifted). Facial expressions are extremely important to read a person’s intentions and feelings. Mishka relies so much on what she sees to process what she feels, and I can just see how I now have to consider the words child and depression in one sentence.

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A depressed rebellious little girl, not a good combination! So mommy had to get very creative, more than ever! Before I share a few favourite moments, let me rant a bit about women and lock down. Am I the only one that thinks we got hit the worst by this?

Wife, mom, nanny, cleaner, care taker and most recently teacher! I only have one child, I am not coping! There is a very good reason why I did not choose this as a vocation!

We were certainly tested during the highest levels of lock-down, tested for our patience,  kindness and our ability to not only see positive but to create positive.

More than her school work, I made my mission to lift my child’s spirit. Yes she has to stay up to date with her work, but if she feels down very little will persuade her to pick up a book.

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I now have many tricks up my sleeve to keep a bored child busy and entertained. Playing dress up is one!

A few of our favourite moments:

 

This year Easter is going to be different

We structure our lives around meaning and fulfillment.
We strive to live in the moment, but it is not always possible…
During lock down we have more time to savour our lives.
We are forced to slow down even more, we are able to have brunch and dinner as a little family, play board games and really connect with each other.
This year we really have time to stand still to honour and recognize Jesus Christ’s resurrecting from the dead, and His glorious promise of eternal life for all who believe in Him.
To get into the Easter spirit we decorated our home with some special things we collected over the years and added some of our own creations as detail.
We will have an Easter egg hunt for Mishka, she loves adventure therefore we will make it special and exciting. We managed to buy some Easter eggs, but it’s not about the eggs more about the adventure…
We had loads of fun creating all sorts of Easter crafts which we will use to decorate our Easter table.
As part of our Easter tradition we bake and cook up a storm. Our all time favourite: Hot Cross Buns. All the credit goes to Boschendal!
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We are also going to bake a cake today and tomorrow we will have a special lunch.
Our hearts go out to those who are hungry, lonely and depressed during these dark and difficult days.
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Photographs taken at Caro du Toit’s Studio
For many of us it is the first time we will spent Easter apart from family and friends. Covid-19 is impacting so many aspects of our lives.
We will join the Easter morning service via video because we cannot go to church during lock-down.
We are so blessed that God has chosen us to be a part of Him.
He is alive and in control of our lives.
We will get through this lock-down and life as we know it will never be the same.
Remember to take time to care for yourselves this Easter.
Reach out and bring a bit of hope in this time of crisis.
Look towards love and life!
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